{"id":1090,"date":"2007-05-27T23:41:00","date_gmt":"2007-05-28T06:41:00","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/juliashih.com\/blog\/?p=1090"},"modified":"2007-05-27T23:41:00","modified_gmt":"2007-05-28T06:41:00","slug":"1090","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/juliashih.com\/?p=1090","title":{"rendered":""},"content":{"rendered":"<p>it&#8217;s all code. everything that people say and do, it&#8217;s all a code, a secret language you can learn to pick up if you listen carefully. are you kidding? you all act like i&#8217;m the one who&#8217;s different when you can all do it, you&#8217;re just scared. the cussing? i don&#8217;t know. i like to do it because it helps me express my passion. otherwise, i would be jumping around trying to shake people.<\/p>\n<p>he is more dangerous to you. he warned you today. there is a big barrier. you are dangerous to me so i can show this to you, but you have to promise not to try to hurt me.<\/p>\n<p>you know why i&#8217;m so happy lately? because i was faced with making the biggest mistake of my life, and i chose to take care of myself despite what anyone else felt or said. it&#8217;s because i survived.<\/p>\n<p>your issues can drown you. you have to show that you have the will to survive. once you prove that to yourself, it&#8217;s a resurrection. all of us who live drowning below the surface&#8230;just try.<\/p>\n<p>your problem, and you will see, is that i&#8217;m an independent spirit that you can&#8217;t hang on to. i can play either role. i can need you more or i can need your less. but at some point, wouldn&#8217;t we all like some balance?<\/p>\n<p>do you have faith in that such a thing as balance really exists?<\/p>\n<p>by the way, our issues make us repellent of one another. that&#8217;s what&#8217;s so intriguing. we are both not comfortable having people get too close to us. i have a feeling being around me is as scary for you as being around you is for me. but maybe people in this life are willing to find out despite the fear.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>it&#8217;s all code. everything that people say and do, it&#8217;s all a code, a secret language you can learn to pick up if you listen carefully. are you kidding? you all act like i&#8217;m the one who&#8217;s different when you can all do it, you&#8217;re just scared. the cussing? i don&#8217;t know. i like to [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_exactmetrics_skip_tracking":false,"_exactmetrics_sitenote_active":false,"_exactmetrics_sitenote_note":"","_exactmetrics_sitenote_category":0,"_monsterinsights_skip_tracking":false,"_monsterinsights_sitenote_active":false,"_monsterinsights_sitenote_note":"","_monsterinsights_sitenote_category":0,"jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_publicize_message":"","jetpack_publicize_feature_enabled":true,"jetpack_social_post_already_shared":false,"jetpack_social_options":{"image_generator_settings":{"template":"highway","default_image_id":0,"font":"","enabled":false},"version":2}},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-1090","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized"],"jetpack_publicize_connections":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_shortlink":"https:\/\/wp.me\/sbl5mn-1090","_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/juliashih.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1090","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/juliashih.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/juliashih.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/juliashih.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/juliashih.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=1090"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/juliashih.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1090\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/juliashih.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=1090"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/juliashih.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=1090"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/juliashih.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=1090"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}