{"id":1346,"date":"2008-03-30T17:28:00","date_gmt":"2008-03-31T00:28:00","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/juliashih.com\/blog\/?p=1346"},"modified":"2008-03-30T17:28:00","modified_gmt":"2008-03-31T00:28:00","slug":"1346","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/juliashih.com\/?p=1346","title":{"rendered":""},"content":{"rendered":"

From 3\/20:<\/strong><\/p>\n

alright.<\/p>\n

i’m back.<\/p>\n

like i said, i’ve been taking a final. it’s not so much an exam as a practical.<\/p>\n

the good news is i found another one of my soulmates and as comforting and difficult as it was, i know that the experience changed me in a way that i know i can never go back to where i was. the flipside is, i have much work to do.<\/p>\n

berlin was interesting, not so much as the city itself, as it was the place that allowed me to break open a side of myself that had previously been buried. it’s a wonderfully artistic, creative city and they’ve left remnants of its previous life and the scars it bears as a reminder of where they’ve been, and a place they hope to never return.<\/p>\n

like me.<\/p>\n

i look at it though, and i am not sure that my scars are things i can leave behind in the past, even though emotionally, intellectually and spiritually, i have dealt with my pain and left it behind. my body will never let go.<\/p>\n

the experience that i have never talked about directly in a coherent manner, i relived, as a ghost in the room hanging over me, demanding attention. it brought me to my knees and despite the presence of a stranger, albeit one who felt like he’d known me his entire life, i wept uncontrollably as i grasped the way the shadow of my past has followed me throughout my adult life, even into this new awakening as i’ve harnessed my power.<\/p>\n

i need you to know something.<\/p>\n

secrets have secret lives. they burrow into you in ways that you can be consciously aware, even if you refuse to admit the extent of the universes they’ve established inside you. no matter how small or insignificant, a secret can sometimes carry itself to the point that all those around you who care about you can feel it, yet with an intimate psychic agreement, they’ve agreed out of respect and feelings for you never to touch it and bring it out into the open.<\/p>\n

but you keep a secret in, and it will kill you.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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