{"id":1747,"date":"2008-11-11T04:42:00","date_gmt":"2008-11-11T11:42:00","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/juliashih.com\/blog\/?p=1747"},"modified":"2019-11-03T20:49:32","modified_gmt":"2019-11-04T04:49:32","slug":"1747","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/juliashih.com\/?p=1747","title":{"rendered":""},"content":{"rendered":"<p><em>i put my trust in you<\/em><br \/>\n<em>pushed as far as i could go<\/em><br \/>\n<em>in the end it doesn&#8217;t really matter<\/em><br \/>\n<em><\/em><br \/>\nbecause no matter how much you love someone<br \/>\nno matter how much you give and how much you<br \/>\nwant to support<br \/>\ntheir wounds are theirs to keep.<br \/>\ntheir wounds are theirs to heal.<br \/>\nand if they can&#8217;t trust you in those painful places<br \/>\nif they can&#8217;t trust you enough to let go of their pain<br \/>\nif they can&#8217;t trust you to lead them out of the darkness<br \/>\neven though you know your love<br \/>\nis the brightest, most healing light<br \/>\nthis is their choice<br \/>\nyou have to respect that no matter<br \/>\nhow much it hurts you.<br \/>\nthe only thing you can decide<br \/>\nis how will you lead <em>your <\/em>life<br \/>\nhow will you define your own happiness<br \/>\nhow will you honor yourself and your<br \/>\nshort time as this embodiment on this earth<br \/>\neven if it means letting go of something you<br \/>\nlove so deeply<br \/>\neven if it means cutting out a piece of yourself<br \/>\nto set the rest of you free.<\/p>\n<p>we&#8217;ve all been wounded in some way<br \/>\nlife and humans have sharper edges than<br \/>\nthey mean to have<br \/>\nit&#8217;s those of us who have been brave enough to trust<br \/>\nand have faith in light<br \/>\nwho have found a way to heal.<br \/>\nbut not everyone wants to heal.<br \/>\nsometimes scars and pain are the only friends<br \/>\na person could count on to always be consistent<br \/>\nand that may be the saddest story of all.<br \/>\ni am not one of these people anymore.<br \/>\ni am not walking wounded.<br \/>\ni have been free for a long time<br \/>\nand with the right kind of love, i will<br \/>\ngive everything without concern to my scars.<\/p>\n<p>they will either come to you bravely<br \/>\nand accept you and the warmth of your<br \/>\nhands completely<br \/>\ntheir hands helping yours do the same<br \/>\nor clutching their wounds, they will<br \/>\ndisappear into the night.<\/p>\n<p>life is not in any one person&#8217;s hands.<\/p>\n<p>the best you can do is be true to your highest self and try.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>i put my trust in you pushed as far as i could go in the end it doesn&#8217;t really matter because no matter how much you love someone no matter how much you give and how much you want to support their wounds are theirs to keep. their wounds are theirs to heal. and if 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