2008. A Retrospective<\/p>\n
Fuck became my favorite seasoning.<\/p>\n
The seasons changed colors and moods.<\/p>\n
I fell in love with a ghost.<\/p>\n
It came with strings of such resentment.<\/p>\n
In the space between I want to believe it validates life.<\/p>\n
I left my boss.<\/p>\n
Like a fake-smile relationship with the rich, idiot kid of the guy your mom works for, but who you have to be nice to so she can always have a job. I started to throw around the word retarded because if that label can be used on my brother when he’s so much smarter than them, then they’re for sure retarded.<\/p>\n
I found that I enjoy disappearing. That I love giving out hugs, but I don’t like people to know how to find me.<\/p>\n
I found that if you put too much pressure on me, I just spin spin spin<\/p>\n
I found how deeply I can ache within my happiness.<\/p>\n
The world is really not so big when you look at it as a tiny place inside you<\/p>\n
The world is really only as big as you can imagine yourself.<\/p>\n
2008 was heaven and hell<\/p>\n
and somewhere in it all<\/p>\n
i didn’t lose my mind.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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