{"id":2092,"date":"2009-08-23T01:09:00","date_gmt":"2009-08-23T08:09:00","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/juliashih.com\/blog\/?p=2092"},"modified":"2009-08-23T01:09:00","modified_gmt":"2009-08-23T08:09:00","slug":"2092","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/juliashih.com\/?p=2092","title":{"rendered":""},"content":{"rendered":"<p>i laugh inside at the guys who can&#8217;t stop looking at me even though they&#8217;re with their girlfriends. i figure how deep down they must feel like such assholes, that they didn&#8217;t believe in something better, even if they hadn&#8217;t found it yet, and tied themselves to something &#8220;good enough,&#8221; and are now missing an opportunity. remember those boys who tend to go with their second choices?&#8230;careful.<\/p>\n<p>me, i always believed i would have what i felt i deserved. i was just kind enough to myself to wait until i was conscious to make an empowered decision in regards to what i saw myself deserving without tying myself down with the best of what was available even if it wasn&#8217;t right. now i know what i want, as far as an absolute trust in myself that i&#8217;ll know it when i see it. that&#8217;s all you need. that&#8217;s all that matters.<\/p>\n<p>but what i&#8217;m most proud of myself for, is that i never settled and never let myself get permanently obligated to anything that didn&#8217;t absolutely feel right.<\/p>\n<p>did you see the sliver of moon tonight?<\/p>\n<p>exquisite, like a sliver of ice on your tongue.<\/p>\n<p>a sensation turned memory.<\/p>\n<p>i dedicate that to you.<\/p>\n<p>from birth, you have never left my heart.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>i laugh inside at the guys who can&#8217;t stop looking at me even though they&#8217;re with their girlfriends. i figure how deep down they must feel like such assholes, that they didn&#8217;t believe in something better, even if they hadn&#8217;t found it yet, and tied themselves to something &#8220;good enough,&#8221; and are now missing an [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_exactmetrics_skip_tracking":false,"_exactmetrics_sitenote_active":false,"_exactmetrics_sitenote_note":"","_exactmetrics_sitenote_category":0,"_monsterinsights_skip_tracking":false,"_monsterinsights_sitenote_active":false,"_monsterinsights_sitenote_note":"","_monsterinsights_sitenote_category":0,"jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_publicize_message":"","jetpack_publicize_feature_enabled":true,"jetpack_social_post_already_shared":false,"jetpack_social_options":{"image_generator_settings":{"template":"highway","default_image_id":0,"font":"","enabled":false},"version":2}},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-2092","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized"],"jetpack_publicize_connections":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_shortlink":"https:\/\/wp.me\/sbl5mn-2092","_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/juliashih.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2092","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/juliashih.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/juliashih.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/juliashih.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/juliashih.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=2092"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/juliashih.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2092\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/juliashih.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=2092"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/juliashih.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=2092"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/juliashih.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=2092"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}