so i felt today would be a letting go day. yesterday was the first time i openly talked about what happened with my friend. it has always pissed me off that i was willing to give him such a genuine friendship and he talked so much shit about me. i know it reflected more how he felt about himself than me, but the fact that he did all that because i wouldn’t let him use me as an instrument of implosion was just very disappointing. in deep, quiet places, it did make me sad.<\/p>\n
talking about it is probably me letting it go. i can’t let these things diminish my faith that people are inherently kind. that even though our human side does bad things out of fear or not seeing things clearly, i can ultimately trust myself to take care of myself when things don’t seem right. i try to remember that i have a close circle who know me and let me be me, that when people use me for their dramas or bully me into their games, i understand the situation and i deal with it accordingly. i have to remember that it’s not about which people aren’t ready yet, but about those who are.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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