{"id":2484,"date":"2009-10-30T01:39:00","date_gmt":"2009-10-30T08:39:00","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/juliashih.com\/blog\/?p=2484"},"modified":"2009-10-30T01:39:00","modified_gmt":"2009-10-30T08:39:00","slug":"2484","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/juliashih.com\/?p=2484","title":{"rendered":""},"content":{"rendered":"<p>like moonlit sex in a deserted industrial landscape.<\/p>\n<p>with a ghost.<\/p>\n<p>sing along if you know the words&#8230;<\/p>\n<div style=\"text-align: center; margin-left: auto; visibility: visible; margin-right: auto; width: 450px;\"> <object data=\"http:\/\/www.profileplaylist.net\/mc\/mp3player_new.swf?config=http%3A%2F%2Fwww.indimusic.us%2Fext%2Fpc%2Fconfig_site_noautostart.xml&amp;mywidth=435&amp;myheight=270&amp;playlist_url=http%3A%2F%2Fwww.indimusic.us%2Floadplaylist.php%3Fplaylist%3D71523204%26t%3D1256960932&amp;wid=os\" height=\"270\" width=\"435\"><param name=\"bgcolor\" value=\"#e8e8e8\"><param name=\"movie\" value=\"http:\/\/www.profileplaylist.net\/mc\/mp3player_new.swf?config=http%3A%2F%2Fwww.indimusic.us%2Fext%2Fpc%2Fconfig_site_noautostart.xml&amp;mywidth=435&amp;myheight=270&amp;playlist_url=http%3A%2F%2Fwww.indimusic.us%2Floadplaylist.php%3Fplaylist%3D71523204%26t%3D1256960932&amp;wid=os\"><\/object><br \/><a href=\"http:\/\/www.profileplaylist.net\/\"><img decoding=\"async\" src=\"http:\/\/www.profileplaylist.net\/mc\/images\/create_site.jpg\" alt=\"Get a playlist!\" border=\"0\" \/><\/a> <a href=\"http:\/\/www.pplaylist.com\/standalone\/71523204\" target=\"_blank\"><img decoding=\"async\" src=\"http:\/\/www.profileplaylist.net\/mc\/images\/launch_site.jpg\" alt=\"Standalone player\" border=\"0\" \/><\/a> <a href=\"http:\/\/www.pplaylist.com\/download\/71523204\"><img decoding=\"async\" src=\"http:\/\/www.profileplaylist.net\/mc\/images\/get_site.jpg\" alt=\"Get Ringtones!\" border=\"0\" \/><\/a> <\/div>\n<p>  <span style=\"font-style: italic;\">I just made you up&#8230;to hurt myself.<br \/>I just made you up&#8230;to hurt myself.<br \/>I just made you up&#8230;to hurt myself.<br \/>I just made you up&#8230;to hurt myself.<br \/>I just made you up&#8230;to hurt myself.<br \/><\/span><br \/>I&#8217;m becoming less defined as days go by<br \/>Fading away<br \/>And well you might say<br \/>I&#8217;m losing focus<br \/>Kinda drifting into the abstract in terms of how I see myself<\/p>\n<p>Sometimes I think I can see right through myself<br \/>Sometimes I can see right through myself<\/p>\n<p>Less concerned about fitting into the world<br \/>Your world that is<br \/>Cause it doesn&#8217;t really matter anymore<br \/>(no it doesn&#8217;t really matter anymore)<br \/>No it doesn&#8217;t really matter anymore<br \/>None of this really matters anymore<\/p>\n<p>Yes I am alone but then again I always was<br \/>As far back as I can tell<br \/>I think maybe it&#8217;s because<br \/>Because you were never really real&#8230;to begin with.<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-style: italic;\">I just made you up&#8230;to hurt myself<\/span><br \/><span style=\"font-style: italic;\">I just made you up&#8230;to hurt myself<\/span><br \/><span style=\"font-style: italic;\">I just made you up&#8230;to hurt myself<\/span><br \/><span style=\"font-style: italic;\">I just made you up&#8230;to hurt myself<\/span><br \/><span style=\"font-style: italic;\">I just made you up&#8230;to hurt myself<\/span><\/p>\n<p>And it worked.<br \/>Yes it did!<\/p>\n<p>There is no you<br \/>There is only me<br \/>There is no you<br \/>There is only me<br \/>There is no fucking you<br \/>There is only me<br \/>There is no fucking you<br \/>There is only me<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-style: italic;\">Only&#8230;<br \/>Only&#8230;<\/span><br \/><span style=\"font-style: italic;\">Only&#8230;<br \/><\/span><span style=\"font-style: italic;\">Only&#8230;<\/span><\/p>\n<p>-the question is, does this song come at the beginning or the end? 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