I have 2 more hours before I have to leave for the airport. Deep breath. This next will be big.<\/p>\n
I just got back from PT. My commitment to showing them something was still valid. I knew I was going to be strong when I was talking to the assistant. She was talking to me and I was looking into her eyes. I felt myself open, to see so far inside her as to feel her, and as she talked, her pupils dilated. It felt nice.<\/p>\n
Erin worked on my arm and like I had said, I’d prepared to really show her something. She’s not physically intuitive, but I was determined to trust her so I went into the tunnels, deep inside my shoulder where I echoed to my entire universe: Acceptance. This is what’s happening.<\/p>\n
Pain is resistance. You can reduce pain by reducing resistance of what you can’t change.<\/p>\n
She got my arm to go full range, even while digging into pressure points. I was in such a deep state that she was quiet as well, as though she didn’t want to break it. I felt her hands heating up. I looked up and saw her face was red. She was conducting my heat. When she was done she said I did really good. “It was like a whole different person.” I smile at her. That comment has so many levels of meaning for me.<\/p>\n
The work I’ve been doing in PT, the mental preparation for physical dominion, is preparing me for what’s happening next. I have to be strong, maintain my foundation, keep mind above water. I think of the way that building by the shore held in that storm. The way I trusted the building around me, is the way I must trust myself. While the insides may shudder, the outside stands strong. The face doesn’t change. But everything inside, is a matter of good sense plus timing.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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