seeing truth means dealing with truth.<\/p>\n
when what i’ve seen, suspected and felt, everything my antennae picked up is confirmed, it’s a relief. to know that i’m not a paranoid person, to know that i’m not suffering from the equivalent of emotional hallucinations.<\/p>\n
on the other hand, it never feels good to have suspicions confirmed. in fact, it usually feels like shit.<\/p>\n
leaving the country for 2 weeks is good and bad. good for distance, bad because i want to be alone, put my head under a pillow and not hear a single human voice for a really long time.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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