So often I believe what I mistake for love is just the misinterpretation of a chemical reaction. How can you tell the difference?\u00a0Is there really a\u00a0difference? We are orbiting closer now. It’s the Virgo in him that I find so irresistible, his neatness, his organization. The way he dresses, sweaters over button downs–like a mild-mannered banker, and under that the fluid and lean body of a fiercely intelligent\u00a0competitor I’m constantly admiring on the basketball\u00a0court. I’m drawn by his politeness. His courtesy. His gentle reserve.\u00a0 His\u00a0 underlying restlessness and self-criticism unnerve me. And he’s still a Taurus–unmovable except by his own will. And yet, didn’t the prophecy always\u00a0point to\u00a0an earthy man, in the symbol of a bull? But I’m very careful when it comes to the prophecy. I’ve jumped too quickly before and made mistakes.<\/p>\n
I’m always aware of him, on the other side of that flimsy gray wall.\u00a0I like the way his eyes light up when he first sees me in the morning, and how he sometimes stands up\u00a0and will\u00a0glance over the wall to\u00a0check on me, to see if I’m there. The other day I was asking about his family, and in my head I asked myself why I wanted to know and I answered,\u00a0to know about my\u00a0in-laws<\/em>. I think that was the moment I feared I was losing control.<\/p>\n I sat next to my cousin at a basketball game a few nights ago; she works one department over. In the middle of the game, she suddenly said, “By the way, I know who you’re in love with.” My body went cold. “Your face is turning red,” she said.\u00a0<\/p>\n This needs to stay a secret. I don’t even want to know.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" So often I believe what I mistake for love is just the misinterpretation of a chemical reaction. How can you tell the difference?\u00a0Is there really a\u00a0difference? We are orbiting closer now. It’s the Virgo in him that I find so irresistible, his neatness, his organization. The way he dresses, sweaters over button downs–like a mild-mannered […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_exactmetrics_skip_tracking":false,"_exactmetrics_sitenote_active":false,"_exactmetrics_sitenote_note":"","_exactmetrics_sitenote_category":0,"_monsterinsights_skip_tracking":false,"_monsterinsights_sitenote_active":false,"_monsterinsights_sitenote_note":"","_monsterinsights_sitenote_category":0,"jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_publicize_message":"","jetpack_publicize_feature_enabled":true,"jetpack_social_post_already_shared":false,"jetpack_social_options":{"image_generator_settings":{"template":"highway","default_image_id":0,"font":"","enabled":false},"version":2}},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-6647","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized"],"jetpack_publicize_connections":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_shortlink":"https:\/\/wp.me\/sbl5mn-6647","_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/juliashih.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/6647","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/juliashih.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/juliashih.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/juliashih.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/juliashih.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=6647"}],"version-history":[{"count":8,"href":"https:\/\/juliashih.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/6647\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":6659,"href":"https:\/\/juliashih.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/6647\/revisions\/6659"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/juliashih.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=6647"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/juliashih.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=6647"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/juliashih.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=6647"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}