I remember the day there’d been a fight on the basketball courts, Jerry wouldn’t play 2 on 2 with me. He was afraid of the vibe, that there was bad energy here. But that was the day I went on an out of character scoring rampage.<\/p>\n
Sarah and Jef want to take over my online dating profile. They’ve declared, “By God, if the three of us combined can break up with your boyfriends, we can for sure find true love.” I don’t do anything with my OkCupid profile. So I said sure. I’ll give you my log-in. Part of me worries about the dark scary road we’ll go down when the two of them get too deep into impersonating me, but I have time to decide.<\/p>\n
I don’t know what it is, but a part of him declared me an enemy today, and I’m not sure if he realizes this, but yes, it would probably feel worse if he does.<\/p>\n
I was pretty focused today, got a lot of work done, but I knew I was very sad. I talked to Jerry about it and I said it was like if he came in with one of his basketball stories and I told him that he was thinking too much into it. And then when he got hurt and said he wouldn’t bring\u00a0it up\u00a0anymore, I called him a pussy.<\/p>\n
And he said, “But that would never happen because you and I would never talk like that.” And immediately,\u00a0I knew that once I was done holding my shit together in public for the day, I would end up somewhere tonight, crying over this.<\/p>\n
It doesn’t have to be with him. Bohr and I talked about it for the first time face to face. “I never got a chance,” I said. “I know, they have a history, but for 10 years, I was open to it, and I just never got the chance.\u00a0Now every day, I come to work and\u00a0put that aside,\u00a0and regardless,\u00a0I’m happy for him.”<\/p>\n
“I know you are,” Bohr said, and I could tell he meant it.<\/p>\n
Today though, I kind of feel like I’m being punished. Not\u00a0a declaration out of self-pity,\u00a0but an observation\u00a0\u00a0of the way things lined up today.<\/p>\n
When you can’t be with the one you love, love the one you got, I told Jerry. I was talking about Rich Rodriguez, Michigan’s head coach.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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