He has until he turns 30. That’s why, May.<\/p>\n
That’s why I’m sad. It’s in another person’s hands.<\/p>\n
And what if what’s mine, is this secret love that I can never have, can never talk about.<\/p>\n
One where everyone knows, but no one talks about it.<\/p>\n
Because of the trajectory I lived, I have to accept what’s mine.<\/p>\n
I assumed it would be a partner.<\/p>\n
But what if it’s the love that is mine? What if in it’s purest, most honest form, that’s what it is,<\/p>\n
and that’s just the situation?<\/p>\n
Yes, I completely understand why. He has a history with her. He has a life with her. He has an entire network, an entire world. It’s not just two people.<\/p>\n
And with me, he has love.<\/p>\n
And it’s mutually exclusive to his love for her.<\/p>\n
What then? What do I believe. That the right thing to do is face the reality of truth. And make art from it. Or decide I won’t accept it?<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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