Had a great night in Portland with great friends. It was the distraction I needed. Just gotta take it day by day, not get angry when I did nothing wrong.<\/p>\n
I asked Amber, I’m gonna be in Seattle next weekend. I can be very good or very bad. What should I be?<\/p>\n
I think you should be very good, she said.<\/p>\n
Damn, I said. I’ve been good for a very long time.<\/p>\n
I know, too. If I have something coming in soon, I don’t want to fuck it up in the final lap. But I’m so frustrated with being good, doing the right thing. I just don’t know why my life is like this. I’m afraid it doesn’t pay off, that all this work, all this sacrifice…means nothing in the long run.
\nI’m just down.
\nSent via BlackBerry by AT&T<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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