Echo

If you’re a train speeding ahead and Indians are shooting arrows at you, you can’t stop and ask them why they shot at you or fight them. You’re a train that’s gotta keeping moving.

I like working with professional companies. I need to know at the very least you won’t fuck me when I’m not looking in battle.

Used car salesmen make me want to eat them.

Get straight up. Pledge allegiance. I’m not perfect but I’m worth it.

Now it’s getting weird. This guy doesn’t talk to me, but keeps endorsing skills to me on Linked In. Is he a robot? Human spambot? As long as he’s not a killer. They freak me out.

Surprise…I stepped outside and it was raining tonight.

How many times have you tried to fuck me in your mind? Because no matter how good technology gets, people haven’t yet figured out how to firewall their minds. That’s the difference between you and I. I can get inside you without touching you. Chances are, if you’ve thought of getting inside of me, I already know how you taste.

Midnight workout. When I like it best.

Stop listening to what other people say. They talk shit when they don’t know direction and they don’t know what to do. Don’t let their self-doubt project onto you. Don’t wear it. It’s not my problem what people can or can’t get behind. I’ve got shit to do. Doubters are gonna doubt. Haters are gonna hate.

I always get erratic when I realize there’s a part of the journey I have to take alone and I’m scared to take it alone. Man up. Stop resisting. You end up doing what needs to be done anyway. You always knew it was lonely at the top. That’s why you were born a twin.

Do it for the money or the love
For the glory of him above
For the ones who came before
Or the ones who follow after
For the start of the quest
Or the close of a chapter

For the road not taken
For the ghost of the father
For a blind mother’s burden
For the wounds of the brother

Though the palms of your hands
Can hold no water
When the footsteps you take
Move the destination farther
When you seek one answer
But believe in another
When you see into me
And think only lover

Time flows not straight
In plain sight is the best cover
When the two sides flip
It’s still the coin that recovers

When it’s time to move up find a tower
When it’s time to move down find a well
When there’s no flow stay still
When life opens its eye…pull the trigger.

My fire is on the verge of turning blue. Just like we are on the verge of November. And the sudden rain today, when I stepped outside and breathed in the smell of wet concrete. Possibility. The metal taste of a blue flame, flicking inside my mouth like a reptilian tongue.

Cool scales, a steel heart. It takes only a split second for me to turn. Blue is the hottest part of the flame. And the coldest. Laser. Just give me a reason.

karma police…arrest this man. He talks in tongues, and poses like a friend. He’s like a detuned radio.

(this is what you get)
(this is what you’ll get)
when you mess with me.

karma police…I’ve given all I can. It’s not enough. I’ve given what I can but we’re still on the payroll.

this is what you get.
this is what you’ll get.
when you mess with me…

Was walking in downtown SJ last Friday and this guy on a bike rides by and yells into a crowd…”Let’s get white girl wasted!”

Melancholy. As opposed to meloncauli, a failed fruit-veggie gum flavor. One of those days I wish I could play an instrument because my mood is in shades, not words today.

Big talk is lookin’ for trouble. If you open your mouth…you better be ready to rumble.

1.5 lbs and I’m under 140 with my strength there. Legs are strong though I got kicked in the knee so hard on Sat there were treadmarks on my skin.

Had it out with Donkey who didn’t like that we kept a running score. I told him if he didn’t like it he could leave. Wonder if he’s noticed we call him Donkey.

Went out this morning to get coffee to see the San Jose Rock n’ Roll half marathon running by, and a metal cover band playing Eye of the Tiger on the corner. Took that as the universe giving me a cue and went back up to drop my purse off and crashed the race.

It was the final mile so I ran it to the finish, registered for next year’s run, then ran back home. Mom asked me if I talked to any boys and my answer was no.

I have to be open to the possibility I may have a sidekick or a butler, but not a partner.

Today coworker said he couldn’t imagine a female ninja, he only thinks of ninjas as dudes. I was flabbergasted. I told him next time, I’ll wear all black. Come watch me play…I’ll show you female ninja.

The young one who came and played for the first time yesterday lit up, pointing at me and nodding saying, oh yeah. She’s a ninja. I saw it last night.

According to Rob, out of the 60 first half points, I scored about 40.

Oct. 20th. I’m putting a lot of consciousness into that day. This is me delaying gratification. Trust that by that day, I will be insatiable.

One thing I really like about me is that I am responsive.

in setting light
sweet words with tea
comes summer's end
a sunset between friends
a slight brush of skin
the birth...of a feeling

and so, begins the fall.

It's okay to have a crush on me.

Who knows. Maybe I have a crush on you.

But isn't that the thing about crushes?

They only have weight in the realm of imagination.

Because if they were real, they would be relationships.

My God. October comes around and it’s made me soft.