you’ve got to let me have it. and by that, you know what i mean.
meaning is mean. just actualized.
i once met a man in the woods, who made the woods disappear. i lost him in a dream.
it’s not my fearful symmetry they fear. it’s my lack of control.
i was afraid of you. for all the wrong reasons.
they’re all inside of you. bearing their own seasons.
if i wanted it to stop…
if jesus took the midnight train,
and found his god in a pillow stain
would you still know who to trust?
but jesus would never be on a train. he’s dead.
in the mirror there is a path
that shows you now and where you were last
and in the space between you can fall…up if you want to.
until you wake another you in a more familiar place.
this place has its own time, and you are your own mind, but when you look in the mirror,
it’s not you.
travelers. do you know who i am?
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Be less naive with your trust.
My job is to capture, not record.
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Painting with the underbrush accentuates everything that is beneath you.
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Wake up on the radio. Wow, haven’t heard it in a while since it used to follow me around. Great timing.
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Sometimes life just has a way of imploding. And you can’t let yourself think it’s just gonna get worse or it will. You just have to stand there and deal with it, with as much perspective as you can open up.
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*sigh*
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It’s a rainy day so I decided to tail my mom. She took a route so complicated she got me lost coming back to my own home.
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This cloud runs on monkeys.
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Your dad looks at all the corners. Your details. I look over the big picture.
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Converted a house into a church.
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You can buy things with more than money.
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Can we civilize our pirates.
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Compassion in compartments. Or you lose your humanity. When the world and you are at odds and communication skewed, shut your mouth and lay low. Now.
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It may be time to train myself in ruthlessness.
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They are asking me to step up as the leader tomorrow.
I have to step up as a leader tomorrow.
Clearly I don’t want anything right now, because my focus is on my responsibilities. But then again, this is always where life wanted my focus, so it will be easy to accept the things that fall into place.
how did it heal me?
it allowed me to find peace in a world in which i feel unsafe.
i live in a glorified hotel room. isn’t it what i always imagined?
going to denver this sunday.
life has taken me to seattle bay area los angeles oregon orange county and back again. denver on a sunday. hmm. did i mention that in the last month or so, i attended a church…twice?
i’ve been to denver once. story as told by urethra (aka oranjello). story as told by me (aka lemonjello). we’re hilarious.