Adrian is ArQnet?
29. 29.
March 29th.

*sigh*

Don’t get mad. Just do what he does. When you go out of town, hold back and selectively respond. It’s not about having a “different relationship with your phone.” It’s about having different relationship expectations. It could be about different values. But see how he feels, how you feel. End of the day you need to be happy. Probably if the relationship makes you feel this insecure, your needs are not being met. You have to examine if your needs are reasonable. If they are and he can’t adjust, well, there you are. You have your answer.

Imagine being really good at something but not really liking it.

Shawn Bradley about basketball. Me about sex.

And then, it finally clicks.

There’s only one. There was ever only one.

If I could look him in the heart and say something, it would be, Rene, you can hold on to me. In fact, I have never wanted anything more in my life as much as I want you to hold on to me. But I have to let you go.

And he would know exactly what that means. And would do the right thing.

Instead of worrying about ways I could lose him, think about ways I can make him happy.

That is my key.

Have you had enough yet?

Getting there.

If I hadn’t sworn by the concept of wanting only what’s mine and if it’s right it would happen, I would have made a move. And maybe life would be different now. And not necessarily better.

I’m evolving.