2008. A Retrospective
Fuck became my favorite seasoning.
The seasons changed colors and moods.
I fell in love with a ghost.
It came with strings of such resentment.
In the space between I want to believe it validates life.
I left my boss.
Like a fake-smile relationship with the rich, idiot kid of the guy your mom works for, but who you have to be nice to so she can always have a job. I started to throw around the word retarded because if that label can be used on my brother when he’s so much smarter than them, then they’re for sure retarded.
I found that I enjoy disappearing. That I love giving out hugs, but I don’t like people to know how to find me.
I found that if you put too much pressure on me, I just spin spin spin
I found how deeply I can ache within my happiness.
The world is really not so big when you look at it as a tiny place inside you
The world is really only as big as you can imagine yourself.
2008 was heaven and hell
and somewhere in it all
i didn’t lose my mind.