safe at home
my soul is open to the entire world
everywhere, i hear the echoes of people
it’s like i’m watching their lives unfold, with or without me
everything happening inside of them
but entire universes
sometimes i don’t know if they’re real or not
so i just always try to think of them positively just in case
my emotions are three dimensionally visual
i can light you in light
i can light you in dark
as long as you tell me where your core is
your deepest secret
i can build you from the ground up with my mind
because my secret is i’m blind
you want it bad enough
i’ll give it to you until things stop adding up
but if i stopped turning these lights on real people
and projected them into realms that don’t exist
i could get a lot more done
sometimes i wonder how hard i really want to be useful
how much i really want to share
because it really is more fun getting inside of people
even though it hurts a little more
technology is right now. how information travels. how to find a universal language. you can feel it in the air in aquarius. blue lightning. smell of fresh rain on cement. dramatic winds. blue. everything’s blue. but only if you’re quick enough to catch it from the corner of your eye. the next stage is a common language that unlocks everything, simultaneous understanding on multiple levels.
the problem is, you are human and i am not. everyone has got to be kinder. doesn’t mean i stop being honest. it just means take the kind route whenever possible, even if it totally hurts. be a bigger person.
that was the one thing my parents always instilled in me. no matter what, always be the bigger person. i learned not to be the mean person. i learned not to be the manipulative person. i learned not to be the coward. i learned not to be angry with walls. bigger meant not being harder. not being higher. not being overpowering. it ultimately meant exercising the discipline to let go, so that no matter what happened, you wouldn’t let it hurt you in any place that will kill you. you believe that you will always be able to heal. it meant seeing that no matter what someone’s age, sometimes people behave like children, so you have to be understanding (though never enabling), and show them a strong example of character. or you do your best to. it’s hard being human, but it’s just what you strive for.