You know what I just thought of?
I was sitting here and I suddenly remembered this girl I knew growing up who was the cruelest person I’d ever met. And the most amazing thing was that she did it in a way in which people had no idea that she was being cruel to them. There was something very sadistic in her heart that made her enjoy psychologically hurting people. And yet, a lot of people liked her. She was a great people person. But sometimes, in the moments when she didn’t know anyone was watching, I would see something flash across her face and then disappear just as quickly as it came, incredibly distinct despite being brief–a cold sharpness in her eyes, as though the doors to her soul had suddenly flung open, and inside her, you could see that she has no attachments to anything in this world, and that if anything were to get in her way, she would not hesitate to destroy it. I used to be fascinated with her because she scared the fuck out of me.