what it’s like to experience words spatially.
it’s like the word literal. i know what the word literal means.
but within a word are so many abstract dimensions and meanings that are just as true as their surface ones, sometimes abstract can be literal, too. then if that’s the case, then what does the word “literal” really mean?
it’s like standing in a spot and drawing a circle with chalk. and all of a sudden, whoosh! that circle you drew is not just a circle on the ground anymore, but a circle on the ground AND a multi-dimensional sphere around you.
what’s black is black but also white as well, when it’s not black or when it’s black as well. <–if you can picture that statement, see that it’s not redundant, contradictory without being contradictory and actually defines a multi-dimensional “it,” spherical, magnetically polarized by forces of opposition and entirely cohesive, then you can see how words are perceived by me. Words look this way, but string them together into sentences and it looks like a dimensional triangle of spherical entities. They echo, all around their two dimensional form. That’s why I prefer white words and a dark background. It’s easier to actually see the echo, than the other way around, which flattens the words.
my friend ryan whose birthday it is today, was the one who thought i had synesthesia, but i think it’s something else. it’s not just perceiving the world through multiple simultaneous senses. it’s like an entire, collective perception of a deeper dimension all around than is perceived by the normal human senses, and i’m using one heightened sense to perceive that level.
where words are windows and people are doors, in theory, i should never be lonely because everywhere i am, i have a place to go.
except i am, when i have no one i can talk to.