I wouldn’t give him my number or take his number.
“It must be hard for you to find your one, huh?”
I laughed. I see his point. How do you find the one if you’re locked up in your castle. But it has to be this way. I have to know. Because I’m terrified that I won’t be able to be faithful to anyone but him. I fear that unless I find him, whoever I’m with, I’ll still look for him. And I can’t allow myself to care about someone and hurt him that way. I would most like to be with someone I am so wholely committed to and devoted to, that I know my search has ended. But if that’s not possible, I would rather be alone, than ever hurt a person who loves me.