I am wasting my life at this job. I don’t mind what I do when I have stuff to do, but the problem is that I’m either going at 110 mph or .002. Without projects, I can finish a week’s worth of bullcrap admin work in a matter of hours. And then I just sit there. There doesn’t even seem to be enough internet to surf anymore. I’d rather work part-time so at least I don’t feel like I waste so much of my precious life trying not to nod off, but they are insistent on having me there full-time. Just in case. And I’m the only one they’re strict with about coming in on time and leaving on time. Even though everyone else comes in late and leaves early. I like this company and I like the people but if I don’t get my ass going and get writing and get over this thing about my refusal to market myself, I’m going to go nuts under these damn fluorescent lights.