I felt like a ghost for a long time. And then I realized that if I wasn’t real in this world, then I would find a world where I was real. And I would live that dream. The key, is to be less fucked in this dream life than I am in reality. The question is, where am I in reality, can I change it or is it already fixed? Is it necessarily better?
The answer is, I don’t know. I think it’s inevitable that I’m going to see it, but I can’t promise anything because I won’t know how to handle it until it’s here.