Echo

My greatest fear is that he thought owning a tiger would be fun, but he realized he really wants a cat.

A tiger is a tiger. I can’t do anything about my claws except meet a man who can tame me without taking away my tigerness.

Oh man…this is why I don’t get involved with people. It’s too painful.

When I’m asking everyone for advice, it means I already know the answer.

Julia, the right guy will make himself known. He will actively make plans with you and take steps to realize those plans. He will want to take care of you and put you first because he is a man and you are his woman. When things are good he will be next to you sharing those times and when things are not good, he will be fighting those circumstances (not you) to make them right. When you are sad or mad, he will immediately show he cares and actively try to resolve things because he will be protective of both you and the sacred bond between you and will see this as an opportunity to bring you closer. When he is sad or mad, he will tell you because he will want it fixed and he wants to give you the chance. You should never have to fight to get your feelings heard or understood. You should never have to fight to get a man to love you, take care of you or be there for you. You should never have to justify your feelings in order to get him to take them seriously. He will, because he is serious about you.

Julia, THIS is your man.

At least I fought for it. Well, I guess now you’ll know how badly he wants it.

Today I went to my parents house for lunch and my dad happened to be in the garage. As soon as I saw him I burst into tears. He talked to me and I told him what was in my heart. I asked him as someone who wants to see me happy and wants the best for me, what should I do. His face suddenly started trembling and tears welled up in his eyes. His voice cracked. He said, “Every night I pray for two things. That your brother will get better and that you’ll find a good man who loves you and takes care of you.”

That’s when I realized the depth of his love and worry.

Yes you will.

What does that mean when you’re one month into a relationship, people guess you’ve been dating for 5 years, and now people guess 2 months.

I am both my life and my artificial life.

Adrian is ArQnet?
29. 29.
March 29th.

*sigh*

Don’t get mad. Just do what he does. When you go out of town, hold back and selectively respond. It’s not about having a “different relationship with your phone.” It’s about having different relationship expectations. It could be about different values. But see how he feels, how you feel. End of the day you need to be happy. Probably if the relationship makes you feel this insecure, your needs are not being met. You have to examine if your needs are reasonable. If they are and he can’t adjust, well, there you are. You have your answer.

Imagine being really good at something but not really liking it.

Shawn Bradley about basketball. Me about sex.

And then, it finally clicks.

There’s only one. There was ever only one.

If I could look him in the heart and say something, it would be, Rene, you can hold on to me. In fact, I have never wanted anything more in my life as much as I want you to hold on to me. But I have to let you go.

And he would know exactly what that means. And would do the right thing.

Instead of worrying about ways I could lose him, think about ways I can make him happy.

That is my key.

Have you had enough yet?

Getting there.

If I hadn’t sworn by the concept of wanting only what’s mine and if it’s right it would happen, I would have made a move. And maybe life would be different now. And not necessarily better.

I’m evolving.

The house’s moods could shift walls. We lived on a boat, tossed by moods. I had no control of anything, growing up.

From the first time I met you, I knew what I wanted.

Does he become the guy or is it another guy? I still can’t tell yet. Right now he’s almost the guy but he isn’t the guy.

I’m worried because I’ve reverted back to I/you statements instead of we. And I’m preparing myself for what it will be like when he’s with someone else, trying to numb myself to it. Is it me facing reality or a self-fulfilling prophecy? I’m not sure. I feel like I don’t know up from down these days.

If there’s something that bothers you about a person’s past, it’s probably not the past you have a problem with but something in the present.