we accept the love we think we deserve.


no more, no less, it is what is.
decide what you deserve. then you will understand why you get what you get, and if it’s not acceptable, you will know the way to get what is acceptable. 
often, you just have to ask yourself the right questions and be prepared for honest answers. some people won’t accept unconditional love from someone who wants to give it to them because deep down, they don’t feel they deserve it, or for whatever reason, their own love and feelings for themselves is conditional. in this way, they will only accept what they feel they deserve, rejecting anything that is more or better. some people will leave situations even if they desire it and want it to work because at the end of the day, they truly feel they deserve better, something more unadulterated than their partner is willing or able to give.
no matter what, there’s no judgment to it, just a simple observation of what is. if we accept the love we think we deserve, by examining the love we want or that is in our lives, we are able to see exactly what it is we think we deserve and thus, how we really feel about ourselves and if that, in and of itself, is acceptable and what we really want.
we all get the lives we want whether consciously or unconsciously. i feel that most people have a better chance of being content with what they have if they go about making these choices consciously, and making conscious what goes on unconsciously. truth should never be feared. most of the times when people fear truth, they are only fearing their ability to face and accept truth.
October 5th, 2008 | Comments Off on

why do we mourn for our own lost innocence when we see it in others, when it is still there, alive and intact, within ourselves? 

why do we mourn for the loss of our pure, unadulterated selves, when it is always present?
it is illusion to think that life, no matter how devastating, not matter how ugly, can take the truth of ourselves away from us. no one can take anything that is real away from you. we can only believe the lies told in desperation by the wounded and weak, believe their ugly view of the world full of victims and perpetrators, believe their self-fulfilling disease is the way of “the real world” until we turn away from our own truth, beauty, magic and innocence, letting these precious things starve and wither like an unwatered plant deep in the core of our being.
the thing is, that plant’s connected to everything and the roots run deep, as deep as everything that is and was because it’s a part of everything the way you are a part of everything and anything that is, was and will be. that plant can never die because life can never die. it can only be neglected. but it will bloom for you, filling with powerful love and life force the moment you allow it to, the moment you allow yourself to.
so why do we grieve for the losses of ourselves, of our innocence, for those dark periods in the past where we may have given up ourselves and let our spirit and illuminous well fall into neglect? does not this grieving only perpetuate this loss? does it not make more sense to honor it and enjoy the present and the fullness of your being rather than waste more energy mourning for the neglected self and the time lost to hurt and sadness?
time is not real. it is only a measurement of present moments that are no longer present. only the present exists at any given time, only how you want to embrace the present. how would you like to experience yourself in the present? with honor and appreciation?
or disappointment for past loss and sorrow? 
there’s always a choice, my friend.
October 5th, 2008 | Comments Off on