bottom line:

i have a lot of unconditional love to give to someone who truly believes he deserves it.

January 12th, 2009 | Comments Off on

I feel the new beginning. I have faith in the guy I met yesterday. I think we will work well together. I’m coming to terms with a lot of things. i know i’m an amazing person who needs an amazing person. i know i am capable of fearlessness. i know that i have a nose for the truth. i know that i have a need for truth. i know that i have a lot of love and passion to give, the real, unadulterated stuff, and i share it with people, but the highest level of it i only want to give to the person i’m holding it for. i came into this life committed. the question i’m seeking to answer is, to whom. i have to be true to myself. i have to stop hurting myself when people let me down. i have to stop being so angry with myself for getting myself into situations that are disappointing or frustrating. i have to not take things personally and know that people are doing their best, but not lose focus on my path. i have to appreciate everything and everyone i encounter who gives me support or offers me clues to keep me moving. it has always felt like i was born trying to remember something, trying to remember some secret i was born with, but there’s someone i need to find who will understand what it is. i can’t get distracted from the search. whatever pain i incur from human relationships only makes me emotionally richer. at the end of the day, i have to be faithful.

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just watched the golden globes. this week i have to see:

the reader
revolutionary road (gotta read the book first)
slumdog millionaire
the wrestler

mickey rourke wins best actor? he’s still alive? how freakin’ long have i been out of the country?

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