worked out at equinox with brian. it’s actually a really clean gym but i don’t like the layout. am interested in the demographic though. i also like the company of brian, that we can have something to do together. we’re back on the same page.
i wonder if i only hang out with people i perceive as a twin. it’s just the way i was born, where my eyes were looking when i first opened them. as long as i can feel we speak the same language and see the same things, i accept you as my own. it’s just the way i am because i’m so focused on what i want to see. maybe what it is…i can either seek through you, or around you. my eyes never seem to focus or seem to focus too sharply. i’m on a quest. you’re either the answer or not.
i need to meet more people. it was great watching tv with brian and being able to see things from a different perspective. everything was fresh and new and i could really see energies at work. i was especially able to appreciate energies i admired and enjoyed. i want to have fun with people. get to the root of their honest selves. give lots of hugs. get lots of hugs.
this is the first peaceful retrograde. i feel like the world from my perspective is being defragmented, and i can relax while the full picture reassembles. the energy is out there. now i’m just waiting for the results.
mercury retrograde got a shout out on chelsea handler’s show. that show’s the truth right now.
ghost. i am again
i see something bigger.
i have to follow.
i can see doorways. many choices.
will i finally get to find honesty?
will we finally connect
some people, when faced with disappointment, will take it out on themselves for having wanted too much, when really they should be telling themselves that they deserve more.
“Your task is not to seek for love, but merely to seek and find all the barriers within yourself that you have built against it.” —Rumi
my man’s got a heart that’s a rock cast in the sea
Step one you say we need to talk He walks you say sit down it’s just a talk He smiles politely back at you You stare politely right on through Some sort of window to your right As he goes left and you stay right Between the lines of fear and blame You begin to wonder why you came
Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend Somewhere along in the bitterness And I would have stayed up with you all night Had I known how to save a life
Let him know that you know best Cause after all you do know best Try to slip past his defense Without granting innocence Lay down a list of what is wrong The things you’ve told him all along And pray to God he hears you And pray to God he hears you
As he begins to raise his voice You lower yours and grant him one last choice Drive until you lose the road Or break with the ones you’ve followed He will do one of two things He will admit to everything Or he’ll say he’s just not the same And you’ll begin to wonder why you came
Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend Somewhere along in the bitterness And I would have stayed up with you all night Had I known how to save a life Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend Somewhere along in the bitterness And I would have stayed up with you all night Had I known how to save a life
experimental stream of consciousness writer who may or may not be a liar. sanest person you've ever met but i'll look you in the eyes like a computer eating magnets. what i don't know about you, i'll make up. and you'll still love me because you don't know where i went that moment you swore i disappeared. my moods chase the seasons and i hear it makes an interesting read. i like smelling good.