She walks up and orders a vodka and grey goose.

When the bartender says it’s 12, her man says, “you better enjoy that drink cuz it’s your LAST drink.”

We’ve each taken collateral.

I want to get a bicycle.

So weird. My microphone for guitar hero is missing. My place is only so big and it’s always been on a shelf under the tv. Who would take it? And how? I can count on one hand the number of people who have been inside my place since after my housewarming.

I told Sarah today that I have no problem with him getting married, but if he left her for some other girl, I would fire him from my life.

Jerry’s been asking me if I got his save the date and I finally went home and checked. It’s a couples picture on a magnet. Cute as hell. January 14th, 2012. 11 day. Good date.

I ask him if I’m obligated to put it on my fridge. He said I can use it as a coaster. I put it up on the fridge. It sticks.

I want to be supportive.

People always want someone more innocent than them.

Lately there have been people who tell me all the ways people can find information on me on the web, and it kind of makes me laugh inside because the whole time people are putting my name into the search field, they never think to put it in the address. This is my best kept secret.

My best kept secrets are always hidden in plain sight.

He’ll need to know. One day, we’ll get too close, and like magnets colliding, we will know.

He knows how big my love is. And he gives back without saying it. I know it’s there from the gravity.

In life, we bear archtypes. I’m the other woman.

me and jerry

-You know how I told you i had 4 dreams in tahiti that ended up happening? I told you three of them. The fourth was about you.

-What was I doing?

-We were talking. But it was very real. In a stairwell. So real that when i woke up it felt like we really had met up in that world just to talk. And then when we went to lunch for matt’s bday, when we first sat down, there was a split second when you had this sudden glint in your eye, just a flash, i thought you knew about the dream, like you really had been there too, and that made me flash back to the dream like it was deja vu.

-Maybe it was real.

-Did you dream of talking to me?

-I did not. But maybe I knew.