I need inspiration to want things. I need motivation to go after them.

Rugged…is an interesting trait to have in a woman.

2 years ago, I put my wedding day onto my calendar in my Blackberry, but I donated that phone. All I know is it was in March 2012 (don’t remember the exact day). Now going into the end of 2011, I wonder why I did that. I wonder if there is some alternate universe where my life goes differently, where last August, 2010, I had indeed had the big encounter I had thought I would, and in that alternate parallel universe, I’m getting married in March.

I try not to think that way, but it’s hard not to.