So to address the freakout last night.
I think I was scared I was ignoring red flags. I managed to convince myself he had a girlfriend or another woman.
I think the difference has been in the past, I was worried about red flags that the guy was wrong for me. I think in this case, I really like the guy and I’m worried about the red flags that I’m gonna get hurt.
Mercury retrograde starts today until the 26th. It’s terrible we’re having an election on the exact day it starts while Mercury is stationary, when malfunctions are at their worst. I already read about one voting machine that turns Obama votes to Romney, and they don’t know if it’s a malfunction or a hack.
We started our day by having our network go down for more than an hour, because a pipe fell on some wiring.
This retrograde is going to be a bad one. Think Sandy bad.
I was reading about Venus in Cancer and came across this line:
If you’re constantly dragging them out of the house for exciting dates, they will think you don’t love them.
LOL. So true.
I’m so psychic. I gave the married engineer a week and half to reach out and he sent me an email today, exactly as I predicted.
Sometimes I think I suffer from raging paranoia but it’s not really paranoia if what you feared turns out to be true in hindsight. And my psychic antennae tends to be well-tuned with a history of picking up hidden truths.
I woke up at 5:40 am for the second day in a row. At least I got almost 6 hours of sleep but something is really bothering me.
Today my goal is to focus on work.
I really need someone who communicates consistently.
By the way, we had a marketing lunch last week and I walked in when half the team was seated so I had two choices–sit by one of the designers or sit by one of my teammates from the tournament.
I really like my teammate. Huge fan of his game–his hustle, his work ethic, his good attitude, his quiet confidence, his unselfishness. He’s a winner. I always say you can tell a lot about a man from how he plays basketball.
I admitted to my friend at work I really liked him as a person but he’s very young. Plus, he still lives at home. Plus, I’m his boss’s boss.
So I wanted to sit by him but I didn’t want to be obvious so I sat on the other side by the designer instead. As soon as I sat down, I saw the serving wheel turn and there was a cup of tea in front of me. I look up and saw my teammate had done it. Subtly considerate. He’s a good guy.
I kept catching him looking at me throughout lunch.
Lately he’s been messaging me a lot at night because we are in the same fantasy basketball league and had tried to pull a blockbuster trade the first week that got vetoed. Almost every night.
I told Shello this morning, I’ve got one guy who disappears periodically, and another who is consistent. Guess which one makes me feel better?