9 years younger or 10 years older? Well, it comes down to who you trust more.

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You said it yourself. Persistence and consistency. You need it. You have low tolerance for the unknown and not knowing where you stand. It does NOT bring out the best in you. Add to that your simultaneous fear of and tendency to repeat the past.

Continue being a rock and an island?

Shit, J. How are you 34 years old and you can read people so well but not be able to figure them out? Why is the navigation so hard?

Okay, let’s break this down. 1st. You only got 2 hours of sleep last night. You can not be thinking or emoting straight. Historically you can not keep your thoughts and emotions from tangling when you are tired. Go to sleep.

2nd. Don’t go on tilt. Stay on your own foundation. On your own side. Stay within yourself and your strength. Breathe. Whatever happens, you have control over yourself and your life. You are okay and you will be okay. Don’t lose that trust.

3rd. You have not been eating enough. You’re anxious. You’re in a state of hypervigilance. You have to detach from the cause and focus on yourself. You’re being controlled from the outside. The inability to sleep and eat are signs. You don’t need to make any sudden drastic moves. But you do have to figure out what’s what and if it’s something that you want in your life.

Revisit this tomorrow. Let it lay tonight.

You got this. Next 3 weeks you’re going to be tested. You got this. Don’t lose sight of what’s important.

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My optimism clashes with the truth of hindsight. 3 weeks of mercury retrograde. Maybe best to lay low? I can’t tell what is me (emotions) and what is psychic antennae. But that’s always been the problem, right?

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It might not be…the right time.
I might not be…the right one.
But there’s something about us I want to say.
Cuz there’s something between us anyway.

I might not be…the right one.
It might not be…the right time.
But there’s something about us I’ve got to do.
Some kind of secret I will share with you.

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Breakthrough. :)

Wait and see.

Woke up to the sound of my own voice in my head echoing, I think I’m finally ready to settle down.

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The sword in the stone. I’ve been talking about it for a long time. The right person will not even know that the sword has previously been impossible to pull. For them it will be natural. But to me, it will be nothing short of a miracle…

*****

Last week I wrote that the problem with a person who is deceptively outgoing or aloof as a way to protect their internal shyness is that they won’t be able to draw in other people who are shy like themselves. It really did make me sad because someone who has the ability to see and understand the real, private you will have a hard time realizing you’re there through your smokescreen. But sometimes, a person will just naturally slip through or disable your defenses just because of who they are. It’s my sword in the stone theory. Arthur pulled the sword from the stone because he was the right person. A person will pull the thorn from your heart when he is the right person.

I can wait.

May 13th, 2008 | 1:40 am

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I’m being a freakin’ crab. Two steps forward one step back. Well, still good to protect yourself while keeping your eyes open.

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