This married engineer is here in NY too. He keeps texting late at night but in a way that straddles the line. He wants me, is intrigued by me, is open to a seduction, but doesn’t want to be accountable for initiating. I won’t initiate either (my feelings about getting involved with married men are well-documented) so he just circles…and circles…and circles…
Sometimes though, I do wonder what it would be like. To fall…
Last night ate at the bar at Gramercy Tavern. Had a great conversation with the man sitting next to me, eating alone. We were both in the city alone on business, we both ordered the tasting menu and were served our courses at the same time. His name was Brock from Montana, a financial analyst, married with an 8 month old son. Long, luscious eyelashes, rich brown eyes, warm and sensitive. We had great rapport, a great conversation. He offered to share a cab back because our hotels were a block away from each other. And that was it.
Life is interesting that way. Your attraction and intrigue of others doesn’t end when you find a life partner. You just start weighing things out. I knew he was attracted to me, was intrigued by me, had an affinity with me. But then there are the other things built on a foundation that mean more. They don’t preclude each other but you just have to find compartments for them to exist.
But did I think about it? Of course I did. And I bet with absolute certainty he did too.