full moon in gemini tonight.

i am…shadow side rising.

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looks like i’m going to push the surgery off until jan. next weekend is the final round of the screenwriting contest and is weighted double…i imagine it will be too hard to do coming less than a week off surgery and with my dominant arm immobile. would have to type with my left hand while working through a foggy mind.

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bohr woke me up at 6:15am this morning to go work out. i didn’t get to sleep until close to 3 and felt broken. i did it though, and was rewarded by the first sunrise i’ve seen in a really long time. but i was lethargic at the gym. and pretty retarded. i don’t think i become a functional human being until at least after 10 am.

had to give michael a ride to the gym for his training session in the afternoon and bring him home, so decided to just suck it up and work out again rather than leave just to come back in an hour. felt like i was moving in slow motion. i truly believe i have the ability to nap while on a cardio machine. my body can function on auto-pilot.

had to buy a temporary membership card from the sales rep i have issues with. i always avoid him and anytime we have to interact, i feel like i’m doing it through gritted teeth. i once filed a complaint about him for being an arrogant ass that garnered a sitdown with him and his supervisor. he did kind of deserve being called out, but i regret the whole ordeal. the truth is, i simultaneously hate him for being a douchebag and want to fuck him unconscious.

internal conflict.

freakin’ virgos.

i can’t resist their neat, understated appearance and courteous demeanor, and they know it.

they literally have my number. i hate it.

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why am i so love/hate

sometimes i can’t tell the difference

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