i don’t want to die. i live at the next level. i want to stop having to pretend these trivial things matter in the big picture. i want the world to wake up, so that i don’t have to keep pretending to be asleep anymore.

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you can be both intuitive and logical. often intuition is logic happening at such a speed or running in a background program that the process may not be conscious, but it doesn’t make it less logical.

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i think i’m tired of how petty humans can be. how narrow the vision. brings out the worst in people, the things of this world. and the closer i get to others who aren’t conscious, it sucks me in, into the blindness, the narrowness, until i’m reduced to a role i need to play to defend myself within this made up world of ego, hierarchy and illusion. and then when i remove myself and can see it with perspective, i see its just that sucking whirlpool that draws us in to things that are not even real, but the negative ego forces that enslave our beings. if each person just listened to their own feelings about things, strived to be better, kinder, more conscious. took better care of themselves. refused to give power, attention or reverence to people who are misbehaving. became more aware of the truth of situations and refused to feed the negative… they would be able to free themselves and others from these negative perpetuating cycles.

i am tired of all this. i’m tired of all this unconsciousness. selfishness. martyrdom. this hamster wheel of bullshit. come find me if you’re real, but otherwise, leave me alone. i haven’t got time to listen to how you carefully manufactured your own personal hell. I haven’t got time to listen to you tell me about all the things you’re unhappy about in your life yet refuse to do anything about it. I haven’t got time to let you chip away at my view of the world when yours is so bleak that you need me to confirm it so you can feel comfortable in owning your own nightmare. i won’t let you resent me for my strength, i won’t let you keep cutting at my wings–you will make a grave error, mistaking tolerance for weakness. come find me if you have real things to share, if you’re also striving for truth, to make something of this life experience. otherwise, don’t bring your hand-crafted tragedies to me. they are not impressive.

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i will not be held hostage.

i will not take the blame for this anymore.

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