I’m thinking about the scenes in Ben Button when he meets up late night with that older woman for tea. That movie was just incredibly well written, very different from the F. Scott Fitzgerald short. I was mistaken though, it was written by Eric Roth who wrote Ali and Munich, not David Benioff, who wrote Kite Runner and 11th Hour, and whom I’m not a big fan of.
Link to Ben Button script.
use triangles. they help you gain perspective on things.
i understand now why the number 3 is seattle’s number. the people here are very obsessed with location–pinpointing a person on whatever grid they deem important. that’s why people want to know where you’re from, what you do and where you live. they are triangulating your position on an internal map. i think that’s why i’ve been scrambling them a little. they don’t know where to put me so i’m an anomaly. i also keep moving my points.
did you know my address is made up of a triad of 3’s to make a balanced 9? symbolically, imagine 3 pool balls making a triangle. the most powerful thing i’ve got is a 12th house venus in cancer, which is the source of my karmic tie to the depth. it has always been a great source of pain but strength. a 12th house venus means that love comes to you in karmic ties, and many times, you’re working something from the past out. love is spiritual. it is the placement of secret relationships and affairs. in cancer, it brings about deep emotional cycles and a driving maternal need to take care of and sacrifice for loved ones. one manifestation, you carry on in a secret affair where you never win with someone already attached. another, you love silently from a distance because for whatever reason, you can never get close. it’s a tough placement. i’ve manifested it by letting it make my spirit stronger while not manifesting it in any way that compromises my spirit. by being philosophical about it, i gain wisdom. in seattle, a city that uses 12 to represent its 3-ness, i wonder if i am here to finally face the 12th house.
i am prepared to live a solitary, contemplative life without a partner, rather than compromise in a relationship with someone i couldn’t be with in every way. i am willing to do karmic work if that’s what the 12th house wants to send me, disguised as love. i am content to sit in the 12th house, and be one with its storms. but i will not stop believing that these are just the obstacles that are necessary on my way to finding something greater.
don’t lose track of linear time but break away from it. translate time into distance, space, depth. and then you can see that while objects are connected by time, sometimes you can reach for them through space, which is just another dimension of time. if you are trying to observe the impact of the illusion of time, then you have to reach and find reflective objects outside of the linear projection. i was always good at memory match games–find the two objects that match by flipping over cards. so i found that if i was good about remembering things, i would recognize synchronicities. once you have a synchronicity, then you already have two points with which to triangulate a perception outside of the linear timeline.
i have always said the one thing humans did that released themselves was break the time-space dependency with transportation. i always use ants. an ant can walk in a straight line at its top speed for the entire length of its life, but it can only go so far before it dies. a human is the same. but once the species discovered transportation, we broke our maximum distance-time correlation. we are slowly understanding how we can change our relationship with time. time is a force. but so are we. we are learning how to work with it. the human world is about to get bigger.
one thing you should know about me.
i come from a line of powerful women generationally becoming conscious of itself.
be bold, be bold, but humble.
the balance of seasons.
earth and air
fire within water.
power comes from knowing water.
always let the moon lead.
when it is time to move forward, move forward.
when it is time to be still, be still.
when it is time to confront, let everything that is not real fall away, and reach only for the heart.
eternally
white becomes black, black becomes white.
until it doesn’t.
what matters is intention.
actions will always scatter where they fall.