in the last few months i’ve come to understand i am awkward in human connections. it’s an underlying feeling whether or not it is obvious to people. i don’t go out and overtly seek connections, but the ones who make me feel comfortable enough to want to connect, i leave a door open. it is the best i can do and still be me.
if you approach me in a way that shows you genuinely have a connection with me, you will find more than you expected. if you approach me out of suspicious intrigue and prod me with pinpoints, you will find less than you expected. i believe you and i both ultimately want more.
this gray force in seattle is formidable. these people..their eyes. sometimes you see a spark of recognition, sometimes they’re just as expansively blank as the sky.