Crying for no apparent reason means there is an apparent reason. You just don’t know it yet.
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I know I don’t trust very many people but my friends have pointed out that a lot of people I didn’t trust in the past, I’d talked myself into trusting because I figured I was not trusting them out of some paranoia, but they turned out to be people I shouldn’t have trusted. Michelle always points out that I have an almost psychic perception about people. Specifically, she says my suspicions always arise from some kind of hidden truth. But the issue is I talk myself out of my perceptions. And when I think about it, the people in my life, the ones I do trust, I see them pretty clearly. I know what they are and what they aren’t. But I just trust them. I know exactly where they belong in my life. It’s never a question.

So what about people I do question? Is my lesson to show a leap of faith, that if my psychic antennae is pulling up problematic vibrations, even if I don’t know what they are, to walk away, even if the people don’t understand and think I’m being “irrational?” Even if they try to talk me out of it?

Julia, your gut is rarely wrong. Even if you are wrong, what’s right will still be there for you even after you’re wrong. Never doubt yourself on the things closest to you. And don’t forget this when your head gets lost in the noise. That antennae of yours was the greatest gift they gave you.

Well, the root of the word “passion” means “to suffer.” So what does one do when born with a passionate temperament?
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Cleared to swim!
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why am i still awake? how did this happen?

cold
cold water
surrounds me now
and all
i’ve got
is your hand
lord can you hear me now
lord can you hear me now
lord…can you me now?
or am i lost?

can’t sleep.



still too young…
still. too. young.
still too young…